It is about my
mistake that I want to write to you about today, but don't let that fool you.
Don't think that I now have the answer I lacked previously. When it comes
to God, I keep feeling that I come to a point and I can't go any further. It
just drops away from me. Not because I think there is some mysterious mystical
meaning I can't fathom or am unwilling to make the leap for, but quite the
contrary. There is something I cannot think here, something I cannot see,
and this is all because of my own personal stupidity.